I am not afraid to be the ugly duckling,
Being called different is what I find pleasing,
I don’t follow your societal norms,
So don’t judge me in accordance to your thoughts.
Don’t pass judgements on me,
Because I might look up to people,
For what they have gone through for me;
But you are not allowed to decree,
That I am a shadow to thee.
Shadows in relationships is what society decides,
I don’t follow those binds,
I am a personality that is unique on my own,
I don’t care what others think,
To each his own.
Don’t underestimate my achievements,
If I don’t show doesn’t mean I don’t know,
I can read your psyche well,
But till I don’t reach the levels I want to attain,
I will still keep my head calm and at an even pace.
Don’t think I am dying of neglect,
Please keep such thoughts to yourself,
Kids crave for the pampering and attention,
Heads turn at a mature woman’s mere mention.
Just because I don’t fall in your circle,
Doesn’t mean I don’t have the ability to create a furore;
I am a raging storm kept under marvellous control inside,
Introverted I might be but you don’t want the tempest to reach outside,
It has the ability to destroy you if you collide.
You can call me ice cold or a burning fury,
It is a complex task to read me;
So refrain from stereotyping me.
Don’t blame me for sometimes letting it out,
I am not walking the path you pave,
I am in search for new horizons,
Don’t decide my acumen,
With your preconceived notions.
Don’t bring me on edge with your taunts,
Hurting people is not my goal;
It is not my clothes, behaviour or my past decisions
that define me all,
Showing me your shrewdness on that basis,
Proves your thought process shallow.
Don’t blame me for taking a stand,
I am not you,
And I am not scared of relaying this fact to you;
My perception and wisdom have a different take than yours,
Don’t try to fit them under your opinions and beliefs.
You haven’t been through the turmoil I have,
I keep everything under wraps,
There are a lot many things that have put me to test,
In the darker nights you weren’t present.
I don’t want to live in the past,
There are reasons I never look back,
I have changed a lot over the years,
You might not have noticed.
I know who I am through and through,
That’s something you need to clearly know,
I am a Queen with her own choices;
I know the people who will stand by me are few,
That is the reason I keep my profile low.
I have escaped from the snares of the time gone by,
Don’t make me revisit it by bringing it up time and again.
I know how your mind is going to work,
So No this poem is not frustration being vented out,
It is not a tale of a rebel child who needs to mature;
This is just to make you understand that time has taken a toll,
I am not the girl you used to know,
I am a woman with dreams and goals,
A lady who knows her mettle,
And is not afraid to voice her opinions.
All I want in life is to soar high,
Because my wings were made to FLY.
All Rights Reserved. Vanya Rajwar.
The Soul’s Urge©|2018