I am not Her

A Tale of the girl who once lived and loved selflessly

There was a girl who once lived,

She loved more than she could,

Gave more than many deserved,

Selfless was her soul, it existed to serve,

I am not her.


She brought smiles to faces,

In the dead of the night, her muffled cries went unheard,

She filled others with happiness,

While piece by piece she shattered,

I am not her.


Often taken for granted,

Still altruistically she served,

Putting the welfare of others before herself,

To her own pain she paid no heed,

I am not her.


Neglected by the ones she loved,

She waited ages for them to understand her worth,

With a delicate heart and strong mind,

She still stayed by them through all storms,

I am not her.


She still resides within me,

Exhausted by having loved so selflessly,

She has churned me into what I am today,

I love and give others,

But I don’t forget to love myself for the same,

She has done her part of spreading love well,

Now she needs her rest.

The woman that I am today,

She is not that epitome of unselfish love and benevolence,

I walk away when my efforts are not respected,

Some might find it inconsiderate,

I apologize for the same,

But I refuse to be her,

I need to love myself too,

I am not her.



All Rights Reserved. Vanya Rajwar (VRa).

The Soul’s Urge©|2020

Note: I got mails from quite a number of my followers as to what had happened to the surprise related to the book. I was supposed to share it yesterday but something went haywire. I promise I will be introducing it very soon. Please do stay tuned!! Thankyou so much for the support!

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Vanya Rajwar

That "not so social" author. An Alpha by sight but a lone wolf by right. Eternally and Devastatingly romantic. Not 'sugary' but dark and tormented. A furore of passion and the despair of an idealism not realised. An Ambivert; my calm demeanour hides the raging storm of emotions inside. A Freelance Writer; expressing emotions through words.

13 thoughts on “I am not Her”

  1. I think that when your afforts are not appreciated, that it is fine to walk away. My new rule is that if what I am saying is not important enough for you to not look at your device for two minutes, then I’ll just stop talking.

    1. Thankyou for your kind thoughts. Yes, it definitely is okay to walk away.
      I agree with you and it is very true. Silence is better for people who don’t deem your words substantial.

      1. Thank you Vanya, I look forward to reading more from you too.
        Your writing is so beautiful and real, because chances are we have all gone through such a phase in life, and later decided, that enough is enough; sometimes way too late, but out regardless!

      2. I am glad you liked my writings! People say they have gotten simpler than when I first started writing but I guess we change and my work also changed accordingly.
        Yes, I wonder at times if it’s too late but I guess if it’s a decision that you have pondered upon well it’s never too late.

      3. I am glad that you found it quality work.
        People say that my language is not as fancy as it used to be but I wonder if it’s become more emotive or powerful. I want to write, that’s all I wanted to do ever since I was a child and I am just trying to live that dream.

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